My trip is coming up - my first trip with non-family crew - and I'm more anxious about it than I've ever been.
When it is just my wife and I, if sh!t hits the fan, we just roll with it like we do everything else but with actual guests, I'm feeling pressure.
I want to make sure we go to the right places, hit the right bars and restaurants, snorkel the right spots, win the boatyball lottery - ugh. Not to mention the usual concerns of not dragging an anchor and having good weather.
It's dumb - these folks are great friends and have assured me that they too will roll with anything that might come up but it's hard. It actually took me a long time to agree to this trip because of this very reason. I feel responsible for them enjoying their vacation and if something happens - bad weather, breakdown, whatever - I feel like I will have cost them money (I told them this and they promised me they won't hold anything against me).
Obviously, I can only control what I can control and as long as I don't do something stupid, it is what it is and I have to just deal with it. It's just an odd feeling because I don't normally feel this kind of angst. It almost, ever so slightly, puts a damper on my anticipation of the trip. I can't wait until it actually starts and I don't have to anticipate it any more. I'm sure I will relax and switch into "deal with it" mode and everything will be fine - I hope...
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